Before the mutation, I already knew how to kill. I didn't deserve to be loved. I ruined myself to protect the innocent. Then the mutation hit everyone in Haven, leaving me with wings of flame and another accidental victim on my conscience. Now on the run with Lunar Adurian - scarred, bitter, always watching me - I wage an underground war against the Coalition. But Lunar challenges my every step and gets too close to the heart I cannot lose. He antagonizes the rebellion I'm supposed to command while my father refuses to let me protect the best friend I left behind. I struggle to keep my heart and stay my course, to trust my beliefs and control myself, my life, my sanity-- To hold onto anything at all when my hands are slippery with blood. Trigger warnings: near rape and sexual abuse in the character's past PREVIOUSLY PUBLISHED AS I, RUIN *