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Hi Diary It's Angel Anderson I guess. It's been a while since I've written. I've been thinking about writing though. But I have been too scrambled up in my own mind. Today was the first day in a long time that I have been rejected by someone I liked. I thought that we had a lot in common and we vibe really good together, but she told me "no". Knowing that there was always the potential of her saying no did not stop me from asking her to be my girlfriend, But I would be lying if I said I wasn't hurt or feeling a bit bothered. It's very rare that Ill step out of my comfort zone and tell someone that I like them, and this girl can be considered a "stud" or "dom" or a "butch".She is not a guy So when I was rejected by her it definitely shook my feelings. Yes, I know; technically I should not be trying to talk to girls if I am dressing like a girl. But even while cross dressing I still have a attraction to the more guy like females.I could be bitter and write bitter thoughts about her out of anger; but I'm not because I really wanted her and despite all that I still like her and think about spending time with her quiet often but I don't want to crush on her all over again. It seems like females never like me back when I like them... I guess I just didn't really have a chance.